Loneliness is selfish. Its when people don't want to share. It took me five years of being alone to realize this. All the time I was thinking about how unlucky I was to be me, when I was just really holding myself back from other people. I wasn't willing to risk myself getting hurt because I thought I could not bear to suffer. But that’s what happens when people get together, they both open themselves and make themselves vulnerable. That's the tradeoff. Not willing to give a bit of yourself, is no different than the kid with all the toys who doesnt want to even share one. Now after that said and done, I gave a lot of myself to someone and that person pretty much said she wanted to be alone. Now that shit hurts...I wish I could communicate to her how selfish that life is. But shes a lot younger than me and she has all the time in the world to be like that.
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